Sleep Helped

9 hours.
Still anxious (that tension behind my sternum is realizing but ain't relaxed.)
Not calm, calming.

So it was a Valium at 0830.

There was a time when Klonopin, Lexapro, and Welbutrin, Weed, and Ambien got me through.  No weed, Klonopin, or Welbutrin.  I'll take a small risk in 12 hours.  And, no risk tomorrow.

Off to find food....more than a Snickers bar.