Not a good day

 Much in the way of developments -- none harmful or bad.  It's just frustrations and disappointment.

Details later on.  I am OK.  Just being passive aggressive, sublimating,  and conflict avoidant...you know being really autistic.  A melt down won't help.  A shutdown (extended sleep and withdrawal from excess stimulation) may help; probably will happen. 

• In a hotel being wracked with construction noise (literally jack hammering on floors below me.)
• A parade (Chinese equinox celebrations?) has been going on for 2 hours loaded with banging drums and a lot of whistles and too much fucking cowbell.
• Too muggy to walk it off here.

I cannot find calm.   Uggggh.  Lack of calmness is NOT a calamity.  It's an annoyance.

I wanna go back to Miri.  That decision is not surprising and clearly means I know where to live.

Maybe I will.

I am grinding my teeth, hard.  Valium and Ambien don't mix (>20 hours apart was the pharmacists emphatic recco.).  Gonna hold fast until sunset.  If the parade is done, Ambien.  If not, Maybe a walk.

Delays on Visa endorsement resulting from my agent not reading my requests closely or seeking clarifications.  Very unhappy.  But, nothing I can do to 'fix' it.  Equanimity will come. 

Just not quickly tonight unless the cacophonies (literal) end.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

it is 2.5 hours later.  and there have been big fireworks bursts at the Civil, Astronomical, and Nautical twilights.

It is not an Astronomical event though...  Kuching Parade  I call bullshit on the 1530 start.  It was earlier!

Civil Twilight in Kuching tonight.
Beautiful but too noisy for this indoor cat.

Got a pet that hates thunderstorms and fireworks?  I am at that stage today.  Hugging myself - an old scuba trick - has helped a bit.  

Ambien at 2000.